12/31

I feel like the last day of the year is one of the most important ones. It's a time to make goals and resolutions, and a time to try and make up for all the things you did wrong in the last year. It's a time for apologies to be accepted and friendships to blossom. I love New Years, because it's the first day of the new year and the last day of the old year. The start of new beginnings. I love new beginnings. Sometimes they can be hard, but they are important, because without them, life would be pretty pointless. Until next year, have a good one. Oh, and make today matter. Make it count.

Holiday Shopping

Finally, it's my FAVORITE time of year. The holiday season has arrived! Black friday has passed and now all the stores are having sales! Everybody is so cheerful and full of holiday spirit. I <3 christmas time. I love all the decoration and ice skating and hot chocolate. Yum..... sinking into my serenity

There are people out there who don't know what to be thankful for

There are people out there who don't know what to be thankful for. Which really makes me sad. And on a day (more like week since it's been almost a week since thanksgiving) that you are supposed to be happy, it's really quite depressing that I'm thinking that way. That is the pessimistic streak in side me. On the other hand, it reminds me that I should be thankful for what I do have and not angry at what I don't. What do you think?

When I step outside, the cold bites my skin

Boy, is it FREEZING outside. I am beginning to have that feeling that occurs annually, when I feel like an eskimo. Bundled up in my North Face jacket with a sweater underneath and a furry hat. The scarves making me feel like I want to choke when around my neck, but still trying to wear them, because they make you look a lot more like a fashionable eskimo, instead of a clunky one. And at last there are the gloves. The ones that you leave in your locker and forget about, until you step outside and say, "I should have brought gloves to school today," or "Where did I leave them," or "Shoot, I only put one in my backpack for the weekend." Poor gloves. Mine must be in denial.

There is part of me that wants to start busting out the Williams-Sonoma peppermint hot chocolate, with the chocolate covered peppermint sticks. Or the hot apple cider with the cinnamon sticks that if you put in your mouth plain, the taste is so strong, you feel like you're about to throw up. I feel like I should be going to the store and buying gifts for the holidays, based on the Kohl's commercials I see on TV. But then I come to realize that I haven't even gotten my mom's birthday present. Oh crap. Halloween was only two days ago. Whoa. I guess it's because of the geometry test and the day off from school and the hopeless hours of migraines from the weather changing that makes it feel like forever.

Have I already written two paragraphs? Whoops. I was trying to keep it short. Oh well. Screw it. Tell me a sad story or sing me a sad song.

As I look out the window, I see the weirdest thing. Why the heck are there green leaves covering the trees and it's sunny outside? Then I turn around, to see that practically every other tree has no leaves. Currently, it's about 39-41 degrees. I never got how the different weather sites have different temperatures. Oh well.

I'm beginning to realize that it's 10:56 am and I should probably start studying for the Constitution test in a couple of weeks. Ugh. I'm stalling because all I want to do is finish my lemon tea and calm down my stupid cold that I've gotten for the second time this month. BLEH.

Halloween

Long time no post. Things have been pretty hectic lately, with the Constitution test in two weeks, and who knows how many other quizzes and tests there have been since the first day of school. In my mind, it seems like a billion. Halloween was yesterday, and I was Cookie Monster, such a cheerful character. My friend (who was Oscar the Grouch), held up a sign saying "Keep me in a job" or something along those lines. I was considering being Wednesday Addams, and I'm kind of wish I had. On the other hand, I had so much fun with my three friends. On Monday, it'll be November 5th, and for those who know, it'll be a hard day. But I'll take it when it comes. Know matter what gets thrown at you remember two things:
1. If you want to be successful at what you love, "There is no elevator for success. You have to take the stairs." - Anonymous
2. "Always keep your face towards the sunshine." - Walt Whitman

If anybody is out there reading this, anyone at all, I hope that you're not laughing when you read these or think that they are stupid. I hope that you think that it's just somebody out there expressing themselves.
Happy November.

Earth to me...

I've been so spacey lately it's not even funny. School is... well, school. I've written 2 papers so far for humanities and have had 6 quizzes in the last three days. Ugh. I've decided to list some Marilyn Monroe quotes that I really like and keeps me focused. They are very humorous as well. Enjoy!

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” 

"Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together."

“Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.” 

“If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.” 

“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.” 

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

“Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world.” 

-Marilyn Monroe

Counting Down

This year is going to be very challenging, but not because of the repertoire that is going to be taught. It'll be a mix between the social hierarchy of 8th grade, people coming and going for high school, supporting friends through their challenges and facing my own.

Back to school, for me, is like a clean slate; a chance to show my new fashion sense (not that I have much of one), make new friends (but keep the old (remember that song?)), set new goals, have new things to look forward to. It's another chapter of life. However, if you were to write a book about school (excluding college), there would be only 15 chapters in it. I am starting chapter 11. It's hard to believe how far I've come.

Now, there are only 3 days left until school begins. Each year is different from the others. This year, will be a year filled with new challenges, new twists, new opportunities, like the others. It's time to prepare for another unique year, different than the rest.

Nameless Post

As I have been going on this wacky journey that I like to call summer, I have learned not to set the bar to high. When you're looking forward to doing something and it doesn't happen, you are usually very disappointed. However, if you look for it, the best times come from the little stuff or things you do every day; like going to school or being with your family. Sometimes after a little while in the summer, you long to see a familiar face to my everyday life for a day. One full day. For a lot of people, it's their friends. For me, it's not only my friends, but faces of the people I'm surrounded with. Even if I really dislike them, it's comforting that not everything has changed. But a sometimes, it might not happen. Or when it does, you're to upset to notice. That's what happened to me. At Don's funeral, lots of people showed up from school. I mean, you would want that to happen. He is the dad of three students of my school, including one of my best friends. Anyways, I was to upset about what was going on to even notice all of the familiar faces that were around me. And by the time I noticed, they were no longer there. By the time I noticed, the funeral was over.

I didn't quite know what to name this post. Tell me what you think I should name it, and times this summer you have felt the same.

Lessons from Loss

This post is going to be sad. So don't cry when you read it. Take in the lessons and think of the people like the one I describe.

Here is a question for you: Why do some of the greatest people die young? What is death really?

This is a question that can't really be answered. Saying someone has died and saying someone is gone are two completely different things. When someone is gone, they are gone forever, never to be seen or heard from or of, again. However, when death takes a person, they are still there. Where, do you ask? In your HEART and in your MIND. Their physical appearance might be gone, but the best qualities about the person are still there. Their lessons, their memories, their loves. They leave us with their motivations and challenges. They leave us with their approach to life and the way they loved their family. Or the way that they helped people and the way they made everyone feel like they were at home. And of course, the way they strived to change peoples lives for the better, whether saving lives with their profession or giving advice. These qualities are in lots of people, but it is hard to find a person who has them all.

There is a person I know who just past away a few weeks ago. And most or all of the people who are actually reading this blog know who he is. He devoted his life to helping all children. In this sense, he is an inspiration to all of us. He is in many other ways. But he was like any other man in that he loved his family more than anything in the world. Unlike most people, however, he was devoted to his family and he guided his family. He still does, with the lessons he left behind. But he doesn't just teach his family. Every person who would be near him, would feel the radiance of his smile or the warmth of his heart. It would shine down on you. Not just shine, but glisten. There are not many ways to describe it. However, I am going to try. He was a person who encouraged people. He encouraged people to try new things, and to not give up. Whether it was on studying material for your science final, trying Chinese food halfway around the world, or encouraging people to find their passion in life. Like playing the guitar or the piano, or baseball. To do things you enjoy, like to write or to play video games. He put every person to ease in all social settings. He made each individual who stepped near him or into his home, feel special or important. And the magical thing about it, was he made each person feel special or important in a unique way. A completely different way than any other person.

I bet you can think of other people who have gone on some of the same quests and possess the qualities and traits in their lives that this person embodied. The lesson of this post is a way to live your life and to inspire people around you and be inspired. When you lose someone, you keep with them the lessons they taught you and the love they've given you. We should strive to make a difference in not only the our own lives, but the lives of others. He gave random acts of kindness. This is a way to live life. And to live life to it's fullest in that way.